| you know it's funny. someone else screws up, they get a second chance, but the moment i fuck up, i get nothing in return. i've been a very negative person since 2004. that's when everything changed. i put my guard up, due to things i had to go through. the things i went through, made me a stronger person, and i'm grateful for that. i wouldn't wish what i had to go through on anyone, but i do realize people have it way worse then i ever did.
some people just don't understand how i am. i like my privacy, i don't like when people are clingy. that doesn't necessarily mean that i'm not into someone, it just means i'm different. i get sick and people get angry at me because i can't hang out, it's pretty stupid. if i don't talk to one of my friends every damn day, they get mad at me, it's stupid. what i'm trying to get at here is it's time for me to grow up. fuck the people who have screwed me over more than once, because i let them in, and it's just time to move on.
i hate when people try too hard to be something they're not, and change over night. take a look in the mirror, you're just a carbon copy image of your friends, it's pathetic. i can safely say as of lately, i only have a select amount of friends, and i am happy with that. i don't need to go out and get drunk every weekend to have fun, just because i'm old enough, i don't have to smoke weed to fit in, or to look cool (not that i ever smoked for that reason, i'm just saying, people who do are fucking stupid) i'm finally realizing who i am as a person.
i'm not going to be negative anymore. surprisingly, i'm happy with who i'm shaping out to be, because i'm not following in any of my friends footsteps. i am my own person. |
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